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Something feels fleeting.<\/em><\/h6>\n
<\/em>The deaths and beginnings.<\/em><\/h6>\n
Watching the sun set from above.<\/em><\/h6>\n
<\/em>While samsara cycles below.<\/em><\/h6>\n
Who am I to steal a seat in God\u2019s balcony?<\/em><\/h6>\n
Who am I entitled to so many reincarnations in only one lifetime?<\/em><\/h6>\n
I\u2019m a thief. A hoard of time. A cheater of perspective.<\/em><\/h6>\n
At the same and maybe for these very sins,<\/em><\/h6>\n
I am cursed.<\/em><\/h6>\n
I wake, every single morning and grab the hand of my lover.<\/em><\/h6>\n
Are you really here?<\/em><\/h6>\n
Are you still breathing?<\/em><\/h6>\n
Will this love story play out for one more day?<\/em><\/h6>\n
Or today will I depart?<\/em><\/h6>\n
Will I watch your grow miniscule in the maze mixed with the fog of my breath and own faint reflection?<\/em><\/h6>\n
The strain of ever reaching.<\/em><\/h6>\n
Cursed with the intimacy and familiarity of fleeting experience.<\/em><\/h6>\n
But as always a blessing inherent:<\/em><\/h6>\n
For this jagged appreciation was not the gift of cancer. Not left in loss. Not wept into helpless hands.<\/em><\/h6>\n
But just the rigid discipline of departure after departure after departure.<\/em><\/h6>\n
And the lucky birthmark of place and privilege.<\/em><\/h6>\n
I reach across the shame of this unfairness,<\/em><\/h6>\n
Put my hand on his heart and hear…<\/em><\/h6>\n
Yes. I am here.<\/em><\/h6>\n
Yes. I am still breathing.<\/em><\/h6>\n
Yes. Our love story will play out for, at least,<\/em><\/h6>\n
– and no promises –<\/em><\/h6>\n
one more day.<\/em><\/h6>\n
\u00a0<\/em><\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Something feels fleeting. The deaths and beginnings. Watching the sun set from above. While samsara cycles below. Who am I to steal a seat in God\u2019s balcony? Who am I entitled to so many reincarnations… <\/p>\n

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