It took me three years to write this personal essay. And I’m still in shock seeing my name in print in the table of contents of a literary journal. But mostly I’m feeling overwhelmed with…
Browsing Category pregnancy
from the fertile ground
The doors keep opening, And though my head is still heavy for the pillow, I accept it as a slamming omen, To at least write this sentence, About opening, slamming, sentence-rising, omens. It came to…
On the day you were born…
On the day you were conceived, July 2nd, 2014, Mama fell into a deep afternoon nap and woke up to a “familiar knocking” in her womb. Her cobwebby recollection was of a dream in which…
stammer, stutter, hiccup
If you have ever stared suspiciously at the stars, you have wondered what it feels like to be pregnant. Both states stammer in the face of other-worldliness. In the suddenly quiet corner of the room,…
constellations of untold histories
I have found myself, recently, lingering on the pause following, “You’re so lucky.” Would I be lying, or acquiescing, in a cordial nod and smile of agreement? The woman at the grocery store/in the hot…
on hypnobirthing
(My hypnobirthing doula from my first pregnancy/birth asked me for a quote on my experience…) They refer to it as “hypno” but I think “mindful birthing” would be more fitting. Yes, the meditations and affirmations…
#nofightsworthwinning
I have four arms, four legs and forty fingers and toes. And I have two hearts, two blood types, and two brains. The latter a valid reason, I protest, for my constant state of indecision….
domestic love crumbs
MY CHILD’S CRY STIRS ME FROM BED. After he’s soothed, I crawl back under the cooled covers and just barely register the time on the clock: 5:30am. But my brain has already stirred and my…
life asanas
BY ALL APPEARANCES, my backpack is stiff with stagnancy. But my absence belies. For all the spiritual journeys and cross-road training I imagined myself on in my 20’s – I now get that it’s all training-wheels….